Bandage

I should be Ok
I should let go of the past
Accept the future
Try more
Love Harder
While not forgetting myself
Not forgetting that love is Not an origin of mine
Not forgetting I have a place
That I am
a Daughter
a Leader
a Movement
a Sinner
a Redemption
Remebering
everything will heal
in the cover

In my way

So much here
nothing there
no
thing
.
All drips down
down
dow
do
So bad we want to feel
we go through days and nights
alone
touching nothing in the light
You could be yours
I was mine
Now in the mess of ours
Disfunction is all
Dissonance
I drink it all in
We

Your side

I'm always on your side
Simply you fight against yourself
There are things that only you can do
you have to walk all by yourself
But I will always walk by your side

Nothing left

I like classical music
I like night baseball

A Draw

In the palm of my hands
I hold your beating heart
You gave it to me yesterday
Wrapped up in your lips
Today growing more and more unsure
Holding your own hand now with head
I tried to give it back
Everyday since then
but if I let go
I'll let myself slip
through my fingers instead

While eating breakfast

Simple to touch
easy to break
its only an act
to being brave
you see the tip of ice berg
but the rest is underneath


my legs are too weak
my feet too small
I'm awkward
So I don't stand up
to anything


There's so much in my mind
I want to do
thought turns apathy
and apathy justified
Then there is nothing inside


I'd like to love
BUT
No one will understand
and your the first to tell me
that no one can

The truth

Facebook says I have almost 400 friends. I started to look at the profiles of people I know. Most older people have around this number most younger people had around 200. In reality I think that we are really all very disconnected and lonely. Never is a real connection made. I know i can look at my friends pages and feel as though I have a connection and maybe I did once. The reality is that most people on my facebook I once had a connection with. Some people I used to live, eat, laugh, and cry with but now they are just a number to make me feel better. There was a study I read about and it said that people who are naturally out going in real life get depressed after making a virtual network connection. I am one of these people. Some take virtual network sites very seriously others do not. I want to try to make these friends and numbers mean less and less to me and start to make meaningful real relationships.