Still water

You frozen
in the eye
of the mind
haunt me daily
///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////I uncovered you
naked
but you
never asked
for a blanket

your face

I have bags and bags full
This debt I will never pay off
Not with you ever
till time makes the stink go away
yet never changing your memory

Some people realize and have given up
I tried so hard to make things right
But you stay frozen in a time that used to be
a time we sat upon
acting like there was no end
no questions asked

Now I wish I could take it back
Not so that it never was
but so that it was never
what it should have never been

I made you say things you never meant
I made you do things you wanted to
the flame of desire drew me on
and didn't stop until reason prevailed

I used to spend each waking moment
worrying
now it is your turn
to worry about yourself

As I kiss the cold lips of your memory
I hope it is the last time
stop haunting me
let go of me
I let go of you
yet draging your face everywhere

Seasons

We all get stung
by the eternal noonday sun
eyes dried out
sockets left bare
spending our waking hours
in the darkness

It was then I completed true love
I did what was best
ceased to kiss your skin
left my memories
awakened the fear of lonely dreams
left your hand bare

Now shaking
on shifting ground I carry on
I wonder if a new heart
can take this weary load

New hearts
determined to plant pleasant dreams
I await all of our seasons
to test our fields worthy
for the rays of shining sun
watching the rain
sending tiny messages of good will
I anticipating to see what grows
wondering if the rain does fall
not measuring where it lands
day in and day out
hoping I was not too late
thinking on all the wasted hours
Thinking of your heart
striving to make it at home with mine
I want to be alive
everything to be real
not perfect
to be awake

I long for your eyes to be open
met by every shade
of imperfection and imperfection
to do what I can
and maybe
if I am allowed
to go beyond what I can

To take that chance
waiting
for in the
Summer
Spring
Winter
to see the harvest
of the Golden Fall

and in that Fall
together