Oh its on

We just got my favorite soy ice cream. I want to just eat it all up. Its great with organic cheerios and if you put old raisins in it it taste like gummy bears. So I'm trying to practice that self control stuff i'm always talking about and not eating most of the quart tonight. Schools a run around works ruff....I think i'm living again.

So this is the new year

I have been thinking about something since the wedding. It spurred from the whole everyone is with someone thing that seems to be going on. I realized that most people live inside of these lonely universes and that the loneliness only increases with the wealth of technology. People don't need other people because they have people when they want them via cell phones and computers and can put people away when they don't feel like dealing with them. But our lives I feel are so empty. We don't know when we need others so take them who ever they are. If they're annoying then take them and love them because that's what makes life. One person can make our universe so much more meaningful. It has really been awakening inside of me after having such a hard year of people my heart was so callous. But now I realize that my life is not only for others but that i need those people too and i need to fight my laziness or tiredness for a chance at love or learning about other minds that I have such a short time with. So I love you humanity and I pray to stop assuming what and who you are and to look at each person with fresh eyes not calculating what they will say. I do that for me too I won't plan conversations anymore I'll just plan on talking.