Peace like a river

I was just thinking about that song "when peace like a river". The more I got to thinking the more and more clear it came to me that peace is like a river; its like the water. Life is like the flow of the river but it is not the river itself sometimes the flow is so fast it feels like your in the mist of a rapid other times its so slow you might even see some algae growing around its banks. The key is that it is constantly heading toward its source. Even when it seems like its not moving at all it is getting to where its supposed to be. I feel like that right now, going so slow, like i'm running through jello. I want to be out there doing things changing the world seeing God move! Instead He has me here being silent and learning how to listen for His voice against my rushing feet. I wish my heart would rush to be still at His feet instead of constantly to the excitement of adventure. I thrive on moving and going and learning but i have been learning the value of staying put. Its hard but not as hard as going against God.

hyperventilation

Do you ever feel like your all alone?
One tiny cell in the universe?
You once were something
you once were apart of something
yet now your not
A year a month One day one night
one minute a second goes by
then everything changes
everything but you
all you are is a solid rock
scare to death that when it changes
you won't even know what to do with yourself
most people feel like cold shattered shells
you don't want that but you don't want you
You want to be real you want to feel deeply
but all you feel is others reaching for themselves
You want the new, a hunger for the exciting
to be over taken with love, cut with the sobering
stunned with beauty, wounded by pain
and maybe what your so afraid of has already happened
maybe your just scared this is real

Even the stars hide away

"But I like the inconveniences."
"We don't" said the Controller. "We prefer to do things comfortably."
"But I don't want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness. I want sin."
This part of A Brave New World got me thinking about a past posting. This is what I wanted to say but I was too scared to. I didn't want to say that I wanted to be uncomfortable because I thought that life wouldn't be as good. Its what I've been being feed all my life that Good Life=comfort. But its not true, so don't buy into it. Life is not pain but comfort is not beauty. I hardly grasp it myself. I guess its like when Gene Kelly yells "I gotta dance" in the last dance in Singing in the Rain It makes it so much more meaningful that he was silent in the dance number before hand. Maybe life wouldn't be as full with out pain not that it is our goal to be in pain or conflict but sometimes the contrast makes the enjoyable things in life so much more.