I get tired

I get so tired of thinking thinking thinking thinking. One of my biggest weaknesses is my laziness. I always thought if you were smart enough everything would be easy and maybe its true because even though people talk about my intelligence i don't see it. The more and more I learn the more questions i have, hard questions too, maybe with no answers? I don't think that intelligence can help me now, i don't think that i could help me, maybe there is no help :) maybe were not supposed to know everything but i don't want to say that just because its hard to know anything of any real importance. The answers don't just come and maybe when they do they aren't simple. I don't like how to be a Christian every thing is supposed to be simple and uncovered maybe I'm wrong, maybe we're all wrong. I mean God can't be that easy. I just feel like He's so hidden sometimes, then other times its like He's right there and the funny thing is that most times i can't stand other Christians because they boil everything down to nothing but a nice show. I want more then that, i want reality even if its painful and course, in fact if it is it'll be better.