hyperventilation

Do you ever feel like your all alone?
One tiny cell in the universe?
You once were something
you once were apart of something
yet now your not
A year a month One day one night
one minute a second goes by
then everything changes
everything but you
all you are is a solid rock
scare to death that when it changes
you won't even know what to do with yourself
most people feel like cold shattered shells
you don't want that but you don't want you
You want to be real you want to feel deeply
but all you feel is others reaching for themselves
You want the new, a hunger for the exciting
to be over taken with love, cut with the sobering
stunned with beauty, wounded by pain
and maybe what your so afraid of has already happened
maybe your just scared this is real