times

I can't force my self
but another force takes over
everything I've ever wanted becomes

I try to conceal the line
I try not to feel

but it's like my second nature takes over
something deeper explains to me what's real

I get so scared
When I blurt my feelings out
I let them go before
and I lost everything
my whole self to another

and I'm still trying to find the pieces










and still you are ok with that.

The longest miles are in your heart
these are the roads that lead the longest
with out beginning or start

These are the fragile ships
that weather endless storms
but yet a single word
break the mast
turn the sailor's hearts

If our eye are together
then why are our bodies
so far from with in us

Why do we breath so hard?
Why do you think at all?
If the heart is a cold stone
If winter is where
you've made your home

Desperately I've tried
adding up my mistakes
to make the perfect sum

It was my duty to wait for you
My destiny to grow old
waiting for change


Like a faithful dog,
I was never to leave your dying side
when death was all you welcomed in life
When pain was your only drink
Depression the only food you'd eat

I was to stop my life
I was supposed to stoop down
Becoming better was becoming worse
I was meant to stay behind
and lose with you
to gain your time

But you never gained mine.