Self Hate

The threat must stop
Do nothing
never react
inside
inside
inside
paint all the walls

Look outside
See those
chipped
broken
worthless
No one would ever
Know
What lurks behind

Never sit; Kill those roses
DO DO DO
hide the roof
hide the porch
Never revel to the door

Cover it with a sheet
Blank
All is white
but never deep as snow

Bandage

I should be Ok
I should let go of the past
Accept the future
Try more
Love Harder
While not forgetting myself
Not forgetting that love is Not an origin of mine
Not forgetting I have a place
That I am
a Daughter
a Leader
a Movement
a Sinner
a Redemption
Remebering
everything will heal
in the cover

In my way

So much here
nothing there
no
thing
.
All drips down
down
dow
do
So bad we want to feel
we go through days and nights
alone
touching nothing in the light
You could be yours
I was mine
Now in the mess of ours
Disfunction is all
Dissonance
I drink it all in
We

Your side

I'm always on your side
Simply you fight against yourself
There are things that only you can do
you have to walk all by yourself
But I will always walk by your side

Nothing left

I like classical music
I like night baseball

A Draw

In the palm of my hands
I hold your beating heart
You gave it to me yesterday
Wrapped up in your lips
Today growing more and more unsure
Holding your own hand now with head
I tried to give it back
Everyday since then
but if I let go
I'll let myself slip
through my fingers instead

While eating breakfast

Simple to touch
easy to break
its only an act
to being brave
you see the tip of ice berg
but the rest is underneath


my legs are too weak
my feet too small
I'm awkward
So I don't stand up
to anything


There's so much in my mind
I want to do
thought turns apathy
and apathy justified
Then there is nothing inside


I'd like to love
BUT
No one will understand
and your the first to tell me
that no one can