The truth

Facebook says I have almost 400 friends. I started to look at the profiles of people I know. Most older people have around this number most younger people had around 200. In reality I think that we are really all very disconnected and lonely. Never is a real connection made. I know i can look at my friends pages and feel as though I have a connection and maybe I did once. The reality is that most people on my facebook I once had a connection with. Some people I used to live, eat, laugh, and cry with but now they are just a number to make me feel better. There was a study I read about and it said that people who are naturally out going in real life get depressed after making a virtual network connection. I am one of these people. Some take virtual network sites very seriously others do not. I want to try to make these friends and numbers mean less and less to me and start to make meaningful real relationships.

rain rain

Why should we hold back?

Is it really not the time

Is it really just the place?

Is it me?

You say that a breeze will come

And take all these obstacles away

Will it take this ache?

That deep seated pain

Down way deep

Hidden inside

Just sitting and sitting

Leave

I went away
flew out onto golden sun
there was that thing.
It stirred me inside out
It was because of it,
I had to go find it
I had to know for sure
All the nights before it came
I slept in a dead sleep
Now, ever since it came,
And left I cannot find rest.
It was soft; sweet to the taste but, invisible
I felt I could sit, enjoy the many subtleties
but soon as it had came; it left.
And leaving me was my contentment
In its place constant state of want.
Need so plain, I'm frightened to know
I had only presently, become aware of it
Aware that, the need, was always there.
There is nothing that I love here anymore
So I left.

Some band names

The little fat ears..... that was what my mentee called the teacher overseers ears. The teacher said it would be a great band name.
pop leg =)= that name makes me feel both.

:( how i feel today......

Ah! can it be
We have lived our lives in a land of dreams!
How sad it seems.

Morning Conversations

Mom: What do you want to drink?
Me: I don't know.
Mom: Well there's cranberry juice, orange juice, walleberry...
Me: What's walleberry juice?
Mom: It's not real.
Me: I'd like walleberry juice.
Mom: Ok.

So she hands me a cup of walleberry juice and it had walleberry's at the bottom of my cup.

Unispired and Overwhelmed

what if one day your sorry
Everyone wants you to conform
to be safe rather than sorry
never doing anything in life
You slowly realize that these bars
no longer give you any comfort
that by conforming you see past them
but they still are keeping you here
It's OK to give up everything for fear
But not for opportunity
It's alright to complain,be apathetic and utterly dissatisfied
as long as you stay where you are

Would you rather be unsure?

Or all alone?

Get ahead but not too ahead
learn some things
but never become independent
Screwing up
as long as you don't do it too often
Achieving
as long as you don't do it too often
The power to control what you think should be yours
but you should always answer to society
to the minority
To the people you worked harder than to get ahead
they should always be on your back
on your legs
you should let them slow you down
for fear of looking selfish, uncultured, or just plain smart
Never recognize or be aware of the fact that you might be getting ahead
because that is not nice

So lets spin the wheels on and make opportunities for our children
so we can tell them not to take them